My life at this moment.

I don't know where to start with this and I didn't want to post on Facebook. I do want to write and figured this was where I could do that. I have been sick for what seems like years. It mostly started a few years before my mother in law passed in 2010. I started having stomach aches in the mornings and it would take me quite awhile to get moving. After my colonoscopy and endoscopy that showed no abnormalities, I started taking Mryalax to help relieve constapation and the pains starting easing up. Then I was told I was pre-dietetic. It had been years since I had a regular memoral cycle. I'm talking like only 3-4 per year. I would feel bad and then I would awhile being ok I just drifted through the motions saying I was ok. Really I wasn't and I lied whenever I was asked. I found out after a thyriod ultrasound that I have a goiter  and enlarged Thyriod and nodules in my neck. I have been taking medicine since jan. I started feeling better for awhile then got sick all the time. More time went by and every afternoon I start getting dizzy, shaky and not myself at all the drive home kills me. I can't stand cooking and my chores get so far behind its now even funny anymore. It takes me all Sat to do them. My husband doesn't like it when I am sick and I don't blame him. I stared really taking a look last year 2014 and started doing the whole blood sugar thing with the meds. After my attack from the cats my asthma is in overdrive. Constantly I wake in the middle of the night with a full blown attack. Idont have the money to keep seeing all the doctors I should be seeing. Last week I had my first diabetics care with a real nurse and my second session is tomorrow. I don't eat the best food and I wish I did. I'm addicted to chocolate and trying to seriously not eat as much. Pretty good so far. I have now been so honest with hubby about when I am sick though he swears I am a hypochondriac, however he stills tends to me. Last Sunday I had my head in the toilet bowl and again on Monday I was sick at work. This afternoon I got sick at work throwing up and right now I have to hold my stictches to keep it from rolling. When I sleep at night I have to have a pillow on my stomach to keep the pressure cuz it feels good.  I have to wear reading glasses and I feel pressure behind my eyes. I think the sores on my legs don't heal hardly anymore. I feel like forty is it for me and it will be here New Years Eve!

Very Emotional!

Right now feeling very emotional my daughter had two major procedures today. She isn't doing well and is laying down. I hope she gets to feeling better soon. Three day weekend for the Fourth of July, thankful for GOD, country and family. 

Father's Day Weekend

Big John worked a half day on Saturday and I ran some errands. A short trip to our favorite place in St. Augustine to eat an early supper at O'Steens. We had fried shrimp, french fries and hush puppies. John loves the Minorican Clam Chowder and the pickled cucumbers. Always a pleasant drive I actually drove on the way up and surprised him with a nice gift. I have been worried about his eye sight lately and want him to get his eyes checked. We ended our evening with a sunset in Winter Garden at Lake Apopka. Sometimes we close our day in St. Augustine but the drive is getting harder on us as we get older. My favorite quilt shop is online now and I do need to call and ask about some patterns. The patterns are original quilt mini of the town and I want to collect each one. Sunday we ran errands and John finally has agreed to wear a hat outside. He is a very stubborn man. Finishing up on an antibiotic, he had a severe sinus infection. Getting older has been harder on us as our bones creak. My to do list is a mile long. I have found a way to prioritize some items and hope to get the kids on a chore regimen, too. The kids are Kelly and Matt. The command centers up, just to REALLY do it, starting with me opening mail from the last two weeks. So let's get a mail night. Time to start my week, this is me signing off for the evening. Hugs, Alli

One Quilt Strip Done

In a nutshell a flurry of activity for the summer. My daughter will a few procedures on her veins. Planning a week vacation filled with appointments for health and household items to be repaired. I've tried several time to start on one room and clean, organize and still somehow I get distracted. Doing who know what, I find myself with books, stamps or fabrics mostly. I am working on a tiny crochet car blanket for an adorable little girl. Oh yes, I still need to finish the t-shirt quilt for Kelly. I want to take an entire day for each of my hobbies to have everything super organized and good flow, this will allow me to work more efficiently and not have to dig for stuff. Many times when I am off I just find myself not doing anything at all. Always it's been raining most of the day, I'm here to pick up Big John from work and away we go to the super market for supper. Hugs, Alli

Lover Eternal

The opening for Lover Eternal is amazing. I love the way Ms. Ward choreographs the brother in the interactions with each other. I wonder if she has pulled from her family some of the phrases they use. Some are hip and some come from way back.

This book is the story of Mary and Rhage. Mary Luce has taken time off from working with autistic children (2 years). This was something she loved and seems to miss terribly. Volunteering at the Suicide Prevention Help line helps her to not think of the past. A secret caller phones into the help center but doesn't ever speak only waiting on the line for Mary. Her leukemia is in remission until playing a message from her doctor she realizes it is back. John shows himself to Mary when she is at home crying one night. He is her secret caller, the reason for his silence he is mute. Signing to Mary in ASL he wonders why she is crying. While Mary and John are talking Bella shows up for a visit. Bella a neighbor from 2 acres down is single and very attractive. Mary is unaware she is a vampire.

John lives in the worst part of time in a real roach of a place. An orphan found in a bathroom and taken to live with Nuns. He is given the name John Mathew. Bella can sense his transition is near and seeks help with a call the to Brotherhood. John does not know he is a Vampire and Bella wants to help him survive. Sometimes there is death during ones transition into an adult vampire.

Rhage is a real ladies man. Nicknamed Hollywood for his good looks and blond hair. The Scribe Virgin cursed him for 200 years with an inner dragon demon. Sex and killing lessors is an outlet for him, needing both he has a reputation with ladies and is feared among the lessors.
Happy Reading - Alli