My life at this moment.

I don't know where to start with this and I didn't want to post on Facebook. I do want to write and figured this was where I could do that. I have been sick for what seems like years. It mostly started a few years before my mother in law passed in 2010. I started having stomach aches in the mornings and it would take me quite awhile to get moving. After my colonoscopy and endoscopy that showed no abnormalities, I started taking Mryalax to help relieve constapation and the pains starting easing up. Then I was told I was pre-dietetic. It had been years since I had a regular memoral cycle. I'm talking like only 3-4 per year. I would feel bad and then I would awhile being ok I just drifted through the motions saying I was ok. Really I wasn't and I lied whenever I was asked. I found out after a thyriod ultrasound that I have a goiter  and enlarged Thyriod and nodules in my neck. I have been taking medicine since jan. I started feeling better for awhile then got sick all the time. More time went by and every afternoon I start getting dizzy, shaky and not myself at all the drive home kills me. I can't stand cooking and my chores get so far behind its now even funny anymore. It takes me all Sat to do them. My husband doesn't like it when I am sick and I don't blame him. I stared really taking a look last year 2014 and started doing the whole blood sugar thing with the meds. After my attack from the cats my asthma is in overdrive. Constantly I wake in the middle of the night with a full blown attack. Idont have the money to keep seeing all the doctors I should be seeing. Last week I had my first diabetics care with a real nurse and my second session is tomorrow. I don't eat the best food and I wish I did. I'm addicted to chocolate and trying to seriously not eat as much. Pretty good so far. I have now been so honest with hubby about when I am sick though he swears I am a hypochondriac, however he stills tends to me. Last Sunday I had my head in the toilet bowl and again on Monday I was sick at work. This afternoon I got sick at work throwing up and right now I have to hold my stictches to keep it from rolling. When I sleep at night I have to have a pillow on my stomach to keep the pressure cuz it feels good.  I have to wear reading glasses and I feel pressure behind my eyes. I think the sores on my legs don't heal hardly anymore. I feel like forty is it for me and it will be here New Years Eve!